18/7/2017
It was the day that I will never forget. It was the day 'ayah dah takda'. It was the day I regret not to give a call on his birthday which just a day before. It was the day I said a lot of 'kenapa?', It was the day i hung up after 2 second my sister gave me a call. After I heard 'ayah dah takde' then all the 'kenapa-ss' keep mumbling on my mouth. It was the day of being no longer 'dayu' the way ayah called me. No more our gate house been open at 1/2 a.m , I sneaking into bed at 2am as soon I heard that gate being open. Because I knew that was ayah. A hardworking man, who always help the needy, he gives more money towards them rather than us (In a good term la kan). He really loves his people, but then there exist the word ' backstabbing'. I've witnessed all the backstabbing thing, all the political things, all the document that filled our house and all the issues that need to be resolved as soon as possible. Even though i don't like all this 'political things' but i hope all Ayah's deed helping all those needy really pays off at Akhirah and may all his deed be the bridge to lead him to Jannah. But after all, Alhamdulillah, ayah had his good wing man and women, which I saw on his funeral day. All his friend that is loyal, Allah sent them to us, helping us , especially mak.. I cried a lot that day, but as far as i know, mak already cried a river, but she held it in, so that we (read:me) become strong. I remember, i was wailing so hard when they recite yassin, while my mom held my hand, no single tears i saw on my mum face. But , common sense la kan, kalau aku nampak anak aku nangis cemtu, mesti aku pun nangis gak, but mak held it in strongly. Well, I hope all my friend, did call his/her father frequently eventho at last u know ur father will pass the fon to ur mom, but the fact that u call his phone is a bigg thing to him. I t was all a water under the bridge.. You can;t change anything now. But be the change that u want. If u want your future daughter/son call u frequently, so start with yourself first.
